..and then we kissed.

So I'm still in a downward spiral when it comes to life in general.

Last week I missed my first lab and now I've missed one lab for each subject. I spent more time in a bed this week than out of one. But my Dad was away and as they say, the cat will play.

Kevin stayed over with some of the girls on Monday (to be honest I don't remember how much I've mentioned him on here but we're good friends, we get on like a house on fire).
Anyways, so he stayed in my bed which isn't abnormal, I've stayed in his house and slept in his bed a few times but it's just for sleeping.
But somehow we ended up kissing when he stayed over. He was kissing my neck and my cheek (this was at about 4 in the morning and we both couldn't sleep I suppose). I didn't kiss him back for ages, just lay there content but I did turn to him eventually and gave him a little peck. Nothing major. Then he said "About time I finally got to kiss my wife". We've a joke where we pretend we're going to get married because everyone should marry there best friend and he always goes on about how i'd make the perfect wife because I love chicken as much as he does and a bunch of other stuff.
He stayed over the next night too then. My brother was home so we had to be quiet. He's kill me if he knew I'd a guy staying over haha. It was really funny actually. We just lay in bed playing online games and looking at puppies for sale (and other similarly random stuff) and it was nice. It really was.
Then the next day my brother text me saying he wouldn't be home that night so he stayed yet another night haha. At least without my brother home we could talk out loud.

When we did leave the house over those few days, anyone we met instantly knew we'd kissed. There was no hiding it. Funny thing was all of them said "Well it's about time". Everyone, and I mean everyone has been hoping and waiting for it to happen for ages apparently. Kevins best friend was even practically begging him to just go for it with me already. So we haven't told him yet. He'll find out at a house party Kevin is throwing next week and his face will be priceless when he finds out he's last to know. We're evil people. We're even going to give my camera to someone at the party to take a picture of his face when we tell him.

Now the tricky part. I've know Kevin since I was 15/16. But a year after I met him, a girl in my class who I seem to be on and off friends with met him and they starting going out almost straight away. They broke up last Summer and she kept stringing him on for months. Only a few months ago did he realise what she's been doing and how much she's been lying to him and everyone and has said he'd never get back with her after seeing this other side to her. But she's the kind of person to hold things dear to her heart and I know she'll always have a place for Kevin in her heart even if she's told me hundreds of times they'll never get back together, she'll never let that happen.
And I never, and I mean NEVER understood the first dibs rule. The you can't date friends ex's rule. If one of my friends went off with one of my ex's I wouldn't care. If we'd broken up and there was no hope at repair then by all means have a go at him yourself. Just because he wasn't right for me doesn't mean I should stop you from having a whirl. I just don't get it.

So now I'm not sure where I'm at.

(edit: She is now officially going out with a new guy? Does that make things any better?)

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